Perspective

The past week has been a whole 'nother type of Believing.  Whew.  As I sat in the hospital with Jordan, while he dealt with pneumonia, I was so very thankful that we there for something as "simple" as pneumonia.  Huh?  It's pneumonia.  There is a cure for that. Thank you God.  We can survive some missed school and work, missed sleep and events.  Thank you God that my child "only" has pneumonia.

I cannot imagine dealing with a worse illness with your child.  There are parents out there everywhere who sit beside a child in a hospital bed and know that they will never be going home.  I cannot imagine that type of pain.  I was exhausted from the few days that we were at the hospital.  I cannot fathom basically living your life in a hospital, beside a child, who you know there is no hope for recovery for.  Thank you God that Jordan only has pneumonia. 

Despite knowing that things could be a whole lot worse here, it has been a rough road, this past several weeks.  Of course, having Jordan sick puts the other issues into a bit of perspective.  Kind of.  Perspective is good at helping to calm a mother's fears concerning illness.  It seems to fade away with the light of day, though.  Perspective is not helping me to sleep, or to calm my worries regarding other non-health related issues.   Perspective isn't cleaning my house or mowing the grass.  No, those things are hanging on to me like used dryer sheets to clean clothes. 

But, they aren't being dealt with in the hospital.  We are home.  Jordan still has pneumonia.  But we are home.  I'm not sleeping well, but when I do sleep it is in my own bed.   At home.  Thank you God that we are home.