What a couple of weeks. Seems like it's one of those times when the planets, or whatever, are aligned against me. Having to deal with issues that I should never have to deal with. Road trips to far off places that cost me hundreds of dollars to pay someone else's bill. Sick kid. Dead car battery. Buddy having seizures. Missed days of work, due to sick kid. I've actually blocked people from texting or calling me on my phone. I've never done that before.
I know. It's life. Life is up and down and has twists and turns. But the last couple of weeks have gotten to me. I'm stressed. I'm taking naps, when I'm not tired. That's my escape. No motivation here. Mentally, I'm wiped out. Tired and frustrated and angry (at some people). I'm stressed and frazzled and doing my best to keep it all together.
Bruce was to be home by this Sunday. For our anniversary and the boys confirmation. That's not going to happen now.
However, Eric is home from playing with trains in Wyoming. Amy will be here this weekend. So will Amber. Things are good with Candice and the baby. Dustin is working. Chris will be graduating from U of Iowa in May. Mom is happy and she and Chief are doing wonderfully well. I need to remember to concentrate on the good and not dwell on the bad. It's hard, but I'm working on it.
So, the darn bill in Bode is paid. Jordan didn't get to the doctor today, thank you to the dead car battery, but we'll get there tomorrow. Hopefully the correct meds for Buddy will be found to stop the seizures. I can't make up the missed days of work, but it will be ok. I know how to change a car battery, so I saved the cost of labor there. I have the ability to use the blocking feature on my phone to stop the phone calls and texts from those who strive to make my life miserable.
I'm doing my darnedest to Believe that all will be ok. That's my goal. To not "hope" that things will be ok, but to Believe that things will be ok. To have Faith and Believe. The past couple of weeks, Believing and being filled with Faith, has been hard. I pray. A lot. I struggle. Then I pray some more. I'm sure not getting a whole lot else done. The house is a mess (the more my stress, the less clean my house, and I'm not the world's best housekeeper to begin with).
All I can do is Believe. And Pray. And get through this all soon. I believe.
You know when things are getting to you all you have to do is just shoot me a message saying you need prayers! Can't promise that things will work out in this life, but can promise that the Lord will be with every step of the way! Am sorry so much has been going there!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hebrews 12:1-2 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Praying so very hard about Jordan!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeletePsalms 86:1-4 Bow down thine ear, O LORD, hear me: for I am poor and needy. Preserve my soul; for I am holy: O thou my God, save thy servant that trusteth in thee. Be merciful unto me, O Lord: for I cry unto thee daily. Rejoice the soul of thy servant: for unto thee, O Lord, do I lift up my soul.
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Praying so very hard that Jordan's over the worst of it and that he'll be home soon!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Psalms 86:5-7 For thou, Lord, art good, and ready to forgive; and plenteous in mercy unto all them that call upon thee. Give ear, O LORD, unto my prayer; and attend to the voice of my supplications. In the day of my trouble I will call upon thee: for thou wilt answer me.
Know that you're in my thoughts and prayers!
ReplyDeletePsalms 73:23-26 Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand. Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee. My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.
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Jesus understands suffering. Praying!
ReplyDeleteHebrews 2:9-10 But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels for the suffering of death, crowned with glory and honour; that he by the grace of God should taste death for every man. For it became him, for whom are all things, and by whom are all things, in bringing many sons unto glory, to make the captain of their salvation perfect through sufferings.
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