Confession

I have a confession to make.  It may come as a huge shock to some of you out there, so please don't judge me.  Ok.  Here goes.

I.  Am..........  Addicted to Football.  Sigh.  It's true!  I'm addicted.  Mainly college football, but those pro games get me, too. 

My children all learned early to stay out from between Mom and the tv when football is on. One season I even had 2, yes 2, tvs in the living room.  That way I could watch two games at the same time and didn't have to chose between two good ones.  I, you might want to sit down for this one, yell at the tv, like those players and coaches can hear me during the game!  Believe me, I'm soooooo much better at coaching than some of those guys!  : )  I watch old Iowa games on the Big Ten Network.  I'd rather watch a bad football game than a good Chick Flick. 

It's shameful, I know.

So, add 2 three day weekends in a row for me, full of football games on tv, and it adds up to bad things.  Throw in an awesomely comfortable recliner and a laptop computer and I'm done.  Glued to the tv while things go from bad to worse around me.  Focused on the tv, with time out for Words For Friends on Facebook.  Sigh.

I have washed dishes and done some laundry ~  football isn't really on ALL of the time!  I've been to the store.  I've boxed up the Christmas stuff and it's put away.  I've swept a floor or two.  However, the majority of my 3 day weekends have been spent in pure football laziness.

Before I continue my confession, let me give you a wee bit of background leading up to my days of footbal indulgence.  And this is probably my true confession.

I do not function well with too much going on.  The more stressful my life is, the worse I function.  The less "me" time that I have, the worse I handle that stress.  When I don't get my free time to regenerate myself, to think and calm myself, then things can go horribly wrong in my life.  It's not that I don't want to be around people.  It's that as much as I love to hang out with my family and my friends, I need some time each day for me to relax in my own way.  By myself.  That's just me. 


I can go a few days without that "me" time.  I've been known to sleep for a few hours, then wake up, be wide awake, and take my "me" time in the middle of the night.  That's not really an optimum way for me to relax, but when that scenario happens, I don't have a say in it.  I wake up.  I'm awake.  I can't go back to sleep.  Insomnia?  Not really, because I go right to sleep when I go to bed.  My own internal system seems to wake me up, craving that alone time.  I really do not like it when that scenario is being played out.  I get way too tired during the day! 

The last few weeks around here, I've not had the opportunity for my "me" time.  I'm used to getting off of work at noon and coming home to a few hours of aloneness in the house.  I relax, sew, clean, whatever.  But, it's just me and the critters and I get the chance to regroup from whatever it is that I need regrouping from.

The last few weeks, between Bruce being off of, for the weather and a week of shutdown, and the boys being home for Christmas break, I've not had much "me" time at all.  Now, that does not mean that I don't love having the boys and Bruce around!  I'm quite happy that they are all here!!  However, by being here, they have interrupted my schedule!  I'm not waking up in the middle of the night, but I am feeling a bit overwhelmed.  All kinds of things to do around this house.  Oodles and oodles of boxes that need sorted and stuff to be put away somewhere.  Furniture to move around and some to get rid of.  Cleaning to be done.  A bedroom and a craftroom to finish being swapped out.

But, I seem to have hit my proverbial brick wall.  I'm sure some of you out there are thinking that I'm quite whimpy if this is all it takes to set me spinning!  We are all different and we all handle our lives in different ways.  I am who I am and I need what I need.  Needing some "me" time does not make me a bad person, it doesn't even make me whimpy!  However, it does make me a Football addict!!

Even I would be sick of the amount of football that I've watched were I in my normal zone.  My schedule is out of whack, my inner self is seeking a bit of peace.  So, I sit in the recliner, in front of the tv, with a book or the laptop or a piece of paper to doodle on, and pretty much turn into a Football Addict.  I'm in my own little bubble here in this chair.  All of those things that need to be done will be there when Bruce is back to work and the boys are back in school.  My house will be ok.  Stuff will be taken care of.  My out of whackiness will hopefully get back into whack in a hurry!

So, rather than stress about even more stuff, like all of the things that are not getting done around here, I hibernate in plain sight.  (Bruce and the boys will freely admit that if I'm not doing things, they don't do things.  They are not good at taking it upon themselves to clean and cook and such.  Sigh)   I'm not using football as an excuse to not do things.  The way this house looks now is driving me crazy... even tho I'm not showing it outwardly!  Tomorrow I might get my schedule back and things will be in whack again! 

But.......

Today, I'm a football addict.  Looking forward to the Bowl games that are on today, and the Rose Parade, too!  I am planning to head out for a bit of sale shopping at the quilt shop today, but rest assured that I will be home in time for football.  I will probably hit a grocery store today, too, but I'll have to plan that around football games! 

I'm a football addict.  I'm not proud of it.  But that's they way it is......... today!